I LoveD You. I Hate You.
I loved you. And the way you made me feel. I loved the way you could make my days just by saying ’Hi’ to me. I loved your charm. I loved how we were so much alike but at the same time we were so different. I loved how we could talk for hours on end about anything and everything. I loved how crazy you were. I loved the fire you have inside you. I loved how I could trust you.
I hate you. And everything you represent. I hate the power you know that you have over girls but the confidence you still lack. I hate that with all the potential I know you have you still have no direction in life, you still aim for no target besides the imaginary ones placed on the girls that surround you. I hate how you had me playing ring-around-the-rosy with you for so long, going around and around in circles and getting almost nowhere. I hate how whenever I talked to you I always felt like I had to be something better. I hate how every word you spoke to me was went over and over again in my head every night, keeping me up for hours. I hate how I actually believed that we were meant to be. I hate how you were the only person I ever gave my all to but yet you still continued to ask for me from me. I hate how I loved you. I hate how every song I ever sang, every word I ever wrote, and everything I ever did was for you. I hate how before myself I thought of you, cautioning each and every step I made because of the possible explosion that might be coming towards you. I hate how I counted the days we left unspoken but you were oblivious to my disappearance. I hate how you called me your best friend but still put those who’ve hurt you, broken you, and who could care less about you before me. I hate how I believed the lies that spilled from your lips. I hate you I hate you I hate you.
And since my hate for you over rules my love for you..I must say that this is goodbye. I know you don’t care, but I just thought I’d say so for my own satisfaction. I can’t do this anymore and this time I won’t be looking back, I’m done.
